countdown to my baby's birthday; 2 days. :) today has been a rather good day. i finally understoop the topics on counters & registers, encoders & decoders and flip-flops(not slippers you dummy =P). DIGITAL ELECTRONICS. i dislike it. the only subject that i found rather hard to find taste in. :( but anyways, we went to tiong bahru's macdonalds' to study in. kidson, yifung, jusphil, junxiang and myself. and junxiang HAD to laugh at and criticise the bunch of BUTCHES. how embarassing! thank goodness my back was facing them, or else i'd have a rather hard time trying to act as if nothing happened. "JunXiang hates BUTCHES"; point taken. still, i doubt there was a need for him to scream his head off by the disgust that fell over him. EMBARASSING. anyways, i ought to leave for cell group pretty soon, my baby's still shopping with her mummy in town. hope she has a great time! *wonders* hmmm... did guys ask for her number? hahas.. that's another story anyways. but i trust you baby! ;) OR ELSE... =)
gonna catch either KILL BILL 2 with dominic and joshua tomorrow. i think it'll be at tampines, then afterwards, it's fish & co. for us. or at least for my brother. hahas... we'll see about that, won't we? =P *glances at watch* oops! betta go catch a cab now! ciaos people! catch ya laters!

Goliath = exams. David = me.
In response to the previous entry. :)

i came, i conquered, and victory is mine. this i conclude.

i wonder, am i just worrying excessively, or am i over possessive.
which of these, i do not know. someone tell me? well i get overly upset whenever you don't 'report' to me your whereabouts, and especially when you cease to reply. i'm worried. but what could possibly happen right? i should just stop this infant-like, childish act of excessive worry, and start trusting in you, to be responsible and mature. afterall, you're all grown-up and i won't have time to keep on asking you where you are and everything in the near future. but the part on you 'disappearing' was alarming! you just sort of ceased to exist for that long period of time. so please, that isn't a real good way to pull a joke on me. i'm not saying that you did pull one on me, you were just careless to have left your mobile in jo's bag. seriously i hope you'll never forget, especially when it's late. i just might have a sudden heart-attack and die. :) but all's well now, you're safe and sound. that's most important of course. so please yea?

*pimple on my forehead, i feel indian*

due to an unexpected glitch in my memory, my paper starts at 2pm, instead of 6pm! wow! an unexpected surprise indeed at 10 in the morning! especially when my revision is messy. anyways, the Lord has been good, and the Holy Spirit reminded me to check my schedule. wow! the Lord is ever gracious. :) things could've been worse right? and i thought about the 'worst-case scenario'. well, i could've missed my exam thinking that it starts at 6! see? :) hah.. anyways, gonan wait for my mum to come home from the market, before i leave home and to conquer my paper. the Wisdom and the Strength of King Solomon and Samson shall renew me thru the Holy Spirit and i will be above and not be beneath, the Head and not the Tail. In Jesus' name i pray, amen. I desire. To be wiser than King Solomon. Wisdom is what i seek. :)

has anyone wondered what is evil?
here's my thought:
without good, there is no evil. without light, there is no such thing called darkness.
get the drift?
anyways, why do people always do evil? or think evil? or lust for darkness? don't they know that darkness is just something you hurl yourself into when you lose sight and track of truth? let me pose you a question then. if you ever had the thought that you wanted to have darkness everywhere so that evil reigns, ask yourself this "What will become of me?". think about it. the devil makes you think that "EVIL" is somthing "good". but don't get confused with it all. the devil is just playing tricks on your mind, fooling you and deceiving you, hindering you from the truth. let's say the world turned dark, and there isn't any light source. WILL YOU SURVIVE? ANS: NO. thus i conclude, ALWAYS STAY AWAY FROM EVIL. it's a misconception, and an endless cycle of deceit. i shall continue this later on in the week.

P.s. just felt led to write this and to 'brain' over it.

[John Ji]
my first paper starts in appoximately eighteen hours. come to think of it, let's break it down.
Sleep = 6 hours.
Washing up + breakfast = 1/2 hour.
Getting orientated to study = 1/2 hour.
Now, that's 7 hours gone. I'm left with eleven hours.
Last revision = 5 hours.
Now, that's twelve hours gone.
Lunch = 1 hour.
Now, thirteen hours gone.
Last minute revision = 3 hours.
Transportation time = 2 hours.
Voila! Eighteen hours to the start of the silent but precise timer of the examination hall. It is rather scary sometimes, the way you look at it. hah! and i thought i wouldn't have to face anymore of such 'O' levels memoir. seems to me, it's back to square 1 ehs? but alrighty, back to the equations and calculations on Principles of Electrical and Electronics Engineering. Reality is sometimes harsh. But thank goodness, i've got the wisdom of God to guide me and His strength to keep me awake at this awfully awkward time. Adraneline is foreign, it ceases to exist in me. God took it away. He replaced it with STRENGTH. *all smiles* i'm all pumped up now, gonna get back to it. catch you guys laters in the afternoon. ciaos :)))

[John Ji]
latest craze: Chinese language.

rainbowbutterflybabytiara says:
latest craze: i wanna go to the DEATH RAILWAY!

[John Ji]
HAPPY TENTH MONTH my baby darling sweetie cup cakes honey BUTTERFLY TIARA!

Three words: I LOVE YOU.

Nuff said.

rainbowbutterflybabytiara says:
went to church today....met up wit val for breakfast!hahaha...okies..after that went for bs...
after bs ran straight down to report at b4 for duty! i received my tag alreadi!!!
okies, i'm too lazy to carry on..but the main point is that: I'M NOT GONNA BE UNDER SISTER JINGYIN ANYMORE... x((((((((
soooooooooooooooo sad! but i did manage to make her happy! i didnt have any loopholes!weeeeeeeeweeeee!
okies,back to my day. went to jp to meet darling...we went home together wit sister cat,sister rina and sister veron and of course, the cg members! some of them only la...... okies...gonna go have dinner now... ciaooo .
sorry to bore you wit this lame entry! x(

Dates to remember:
26/04/04-10th month(1 day)
02/05/04-sweet sixteen(1 week)

i just got back from town like an hour ago.it was awesome! i really miss town.yes yes,i havent been going out cept for cellgroup and service.and on mondays, i will head to suntec for tuition! wells, val asked me out and i told me darling and he told me to go and enjoy myself.he is such a sweetheart. x)
so ya, came home and showered and got ready.we really had a blast ! ahahha,ohhh,val being a sweetheart bought me bangels! it was so sweet of her! x)))))) hahaha..we then walked the whole of town.and i came home...so yups.thats my day.
anyways,my darling is currently in Cellgroup. i predict that he aint gonna be finished till like arnd 2230-2300?ahh well,i'll just wait patiently and in the mean time, i am gonna do my homework and reviseeeeeeeeeeeeee! my exams are like two days after my bday. and i thought it was gonna be like in the middle of the month. i hate YCKSS. stupid school. x( ahh,gonna go wash up and study! bye bye peepssss! tIaRa signing offf! she misses everyone esp her darling JOHN JI!

guess not, time to snooze. nights people..

should i get a cap?

the day was spent, attending a redundant but 'important' meeting, revising at home, a little 'shattered galaxy', and hanging out with my buddies. :) joshua and dominic. but predominantly, my baby was on my mind all the time. she's sick.. hope she's okay. just prayed together with her just now. hope she feels much better. :) not very much in the mood to blog. :(

darn, the pictures went off again.

hope i've got golf later on with dad. really am craving for some action since saturday. :)

shucks, i forgot what i wanted to blog. =P

i'm just sitting at home here, waiting and watching. my sessionals are coming, they'll be here in no time. like 2 weeks. hope everything will be just fine. my baby's birthday is coming soon too. too soon. but i've a surprise! ;) i'm not telling her nothing. nopes, absolutely nothing. ;)

reality bites. but it didn't just 'bite' me, it swallowed me whole, alive. i realised that whatever happened in the past, HAS happened and there really isn't ANYTHING you can do to change it. then why the feelings of regret and hatred? i don't know, really. but i guess there's nothing i can do about it but to keep it within myself and pray that it goes away.

so i pray.

anyways, met Helmi at the station. he's still onto Priscillia. found out that he went for the Easter drama too! he found it awesome! especially the William Hung part! hahas... it's all cool.. he's a very nice dude indeed! doing lotsa mushy stuffs for her. well, if only she knew. and that's always the case, isn't it? gurls will never know how much the guy loves them, till they find that the guy is gone. haa... such melodrama. but it's good, i suppose. i've never seen a guy so into a gurl. that EXCLUDES myself, but who am i to say. anyways, other than that, it's a good day! went to meet my baby at her place and she's good. love her smile, it just brightens up my day! then cell group was also held at jeryn's 2nd house. the air-con's really cold, and i mean COLD. like winter cold. :( *sorry josh and guys, wanted to join you guys for soccer, but i had cell. next time?*
then we all had pizzas and pasta while fellowshipping! we were having it the Jewish-style of eating. it means eating on the floor. for those who watched PoC will understand. Jesus ate with his disciples, the food were on a low-lying table while everyone were sat around it, on the floor. yea, you get the idea. except that the only thing missing was the table. :) other than that, all's cool. :) enjoyed myself, thoroughly. *all smiles*

wasn't a very good day. got yelled at and screamed at for absolutely no reason. guess that couples with old age. nuff said. but i'm cool with it. as long as momma's happy with the yellings, i'll take it.
hrm... why do i feel this way! it's getting back! the word 'CHEATING' is a hindrance to my soul. it disturbs my very slumber. i'm suffering from insomnia all because of it. well, just make sure it doesn't happen this time. 'COMMITMENT'. a word i never was afraid of. i am NOT afraid to commit myself. but can the other party hold their word? it's hard to say. i've grown it and been through it, the hard way. ASSURANCE is the comfort i need. in YOU, i can find solace. so baby, assure me. i'm just too afraid to lose someone i dearly love. it'll be too hard a blow. i pray and i wish, that day will never come, that we must part. NEVER.

today, i felt much better. though the feelings of disappointment and subtle hatred of self still remained a little, i was pretty much alright.
anyways, went jamming today down at Commonwealth with Graydon, Wen Wen, and JunXiang. it was pretty cool, i meant watching others jam and LISTENING to their thang. hahas... we practically went there to make fools out of ourselves. we totally crashed the whole studio, slamming drums and cymbals, smashing guitars, those sort of stuffs. haha.. it was sure niosy as hell! but damn it felt good! all those smashing and clashing did make me feel a whole load better! then afterwards, it was off to pick my beloved Tiara up down at CHC. it was great, seeing her after missing her for so long... like less than a day? yea... though i was still reminscing about her past, i did feel better in her presence. it was comforting. looking into her soft brown eyes.. white soft skin... hey! enough! i shall not divulge anymore of her! she's MINE! *evil laughs* :P all i can say is that, she's the one for me! i know it! God let us met in a special way too! *Refer to the previous blogsite for more details* yups, sent her home. :)
rushed down to parkway on bus 70, then would have transited to 135. but before the transit, my mum called. damn was she pissed! at what? i have seriously no idea. so obviously i really was very apologetic to my two amigos, seriously, i really am. i'll join you guys the next time! promise!
got home of course afterwards. dare i not go home? ha, only a fool would. found out that my mum wasn't pissed at me. in fact, she herself was rather a poor darling. she injured her both arms during sat's TOW. *Read: Tug-of-war.* . yea... but she's better now, praise the lord! poor mummy! nevermind! i'll keep her in my prayers too! she'll recover in no time!
:) that was pretty much my day. the sessionals are coming. in less than 14 days. revision? yups, started ages ago. i'll make it this time! i'm sure! distinctions, here i come! "Seek and ye shall find!" and i seek distinctions! amen!
oh... one more thing. i really love my baby. she's the sweetest thing that has ever happened to me, other than me being a born-again christian of course. she's the girl, the one, for me. enough said, i miss her already.. so much!
tatas people! do tag! :P take care ya'll!

oh how i wished... just wished... those memories would fade away...

Lord have your way in my heart oh God, have your way.

[John Ji]

Why must i feel this way? Why does it all have to keep coming back? About that day! Why? Someone please tell me how to escape or rather SOLVE this misery-filled memory of mine, which keeps flashing back at the slightest remembrance. The feeling of regret really sucks. Having known i could have done something to prevent it, but did nothing and allowed it to happen! What the ****! When did it happen you ask? Yea, last year. Sometimes i wished my memory isn't at all that good. Worse still, i have a photographic one. I'm like able to remember things much clearer than anyone. I can remember right down to the singular detail. And sometimes emotion. Ah, **** it. I give up on that. Afterall i always encourage you guys to look towards the future and live the present aye?


Nonetheless, let me give you an update of what happened during the 'de la act auf disappearing', or whatever that means. Good Friday was nothing good to me, it was against me. Had caught myself severe coughs, irritable flus and a fever that just keeps on fluctuating. No, i do not have AIDS. I am CLEAN. THANK YOU. Anyways, made myself see a chinese physician and had to down this horrible nauseating black substance. 'Miracle medicine' i'd say. :)
Then it was off to sentosa on saturday! My baby stayed over on friday :) She's a real sweet darling... Then saturday was great! I can't say much really. The pictures paint a million words. :) The memories of it, are kept in my heart, forever. I will never forget. Lovely, just lovely. Easter drama on sunday was great! There was this impersonation of William Hung too! It was absolutely delightful and fabulous! Hilarious! hahas... Those who missed it, really missed out an awful load of fun and laughters! It was terrific! Well, that was briefly what happened. :)

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weeet! finally back. shall update this later or something..x)))
dont worry peeps,we havent died. x)

gonna go for class now. am in the lab. tatas..

Yesterday, my darling came over to my place to study a lil and to have dinner wit my daddy! it was so hilarious!
we were watching the eye 2 halfway and Sister Esther called for me interview for usher.. it was a very very short interview.. and stupid lil john ji was trying to make me laugh...so i locked myself in thhe toilet! crazy boy. anyways,im in usher,section 9! shld i cry or shld i smile? -shrugs- i dont know. currently waiting for mr neo to get his ass down here so we can head down to church in a cab! yes,in a cab! sigh, i dont blame him..rich kid wot?! ;) haha,he is so gonna kill me... but who cares!lalalala.... update more later..gonna wait patiently for the prince to arrive........

May God Bless The One Reading This Now. In Jesus's Name, Amen. ;)

woooT! haha..last night's dinner was fantastic! the settings was a very cosy japanese restaurant just beside the famous katong laksa!had very nice food too!oh....did i mention that the only salmon i'll eat is when its cooked or smoked?but yesterday, i took a step of faith and eat raw salmon which john ji's mummy offered me! i put loads of wasabi and eat it...it was yummy! we then headed to his place...rested for a while and then we had a photo taking frenzy!hahaa...okies..gonna go now.. x))))))))))

heyyyyyyyyy people! x)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

[John Ji]
just came back from golf. supremely exhausted. and, my back hurts. this is what you get for not doing ample warm-ups. anyways, drove about 200+ balls over at Singa Inn's range. i must say that i am improving. (i'm not boasting! really!) i picked golf up less than three weeks ago and now my average distance is about 100m.(not boasting?) there always is
room for improvement! i'm really a green horn at it still. why? because i have yet to use the wood yet? i'm still at 6,7 & 8. (golfers will know what i'm referring to.) see? i'm a total green-horn. ugh! back's hurting. but my darling's gonna come over to my place laters to study a lil. i sure hope she can give me a nice and loving massage. :))) *the wonders of having a girlfriend* hahas.. basically skipped school today. i had no $chinks$ to go anywhere today! my mum, who was supposed to leave $100 for me to top my EZ-link (farecard, in case you haven't heard or known =X) up with the concessions. yups, skipped my DE practical, PEEE lecture and C++ Programming tutorial. haha... hope i still have at least 75% attendance. i HOPE. or else i won't be able to take my sessionals. :(

i can't wait for my darling tiara to come over! she's asleep! taking a nap! wake up my dearie! lol.. yea, AS IF she would,just by me typing it all here. think i'll drop her another ten more calls, just in case. :))) can't wait to spend time with her too. :))) think we're gonna eat out. Japanese! i want my chawanmushi (japanese steamed egg) please! well well, enough of my ramblings. i've got some *ahem* calls to make!*grins*

in the meantime, ja ne!

P.s. Am i sounding egoistic? Or is it just me?

ehY! yesterday was april fool. sseeemed like a normal day for me till pe came.got april fooled by my pe teacher who asked me to run like 10 rounds when i was only supposed to run 3? x((((((
anyways,i was looking forward till the end of school...! finally can spent time wit my darling!hahah
he picked me up from school and we headed to my place...that silly boy bought for me two boxes of KINDER BUENO! yes! TWO BOXES and two bottles of sprite ice..i am so gonna gain back my fats! baby,do you know it took me so long to slim down and now you feeding me chocolates and junk food?im gonna grow fat! x((((
hahaha,but i loved it! weeeeeeeee....we played 21! we sure had fun aye babY?
easter is in a week.....easter celebration will be held at SIS. will let ya guess know the full details..i'll invite you,you,you and YOU!!! yes YOU!!hahaha..okies..gonna get ready to leave my house now! gonna study wit baby! yay! x)))
byeeee guyS!
oh,its exactly one month to my birthday! sweeeeeet sixteen!! weee!